jinen kothari

finally viva is completed and ...long college hours are over ...don't know why but it all feels long days without any bit of work ...m gonna tired a lot seriously don't like to prepare for next day ...but what ever already crack it very successfully ...n reading time is begin ...may 24-25 days ...n after that finally concluding ma bachelors...or final semester ... reading time is just started ...as usually start reading n making schedules for the time n gonna strictly following those timings ...all priorities is for ma reading and subjects that are going to conclude ...by the day ...like all the reading from the beginning( may be from12th or 10th don't really remember seriously...) m making planes and follow them very hardly ...m used to with those things...working hard or not don't know but ....m trying ma best to crack every thing ...but the strange thing happens no results may be m expecting too much ...or may be m not working properly .!? what ever the reason ther...

Diwali ...  most colorful  festival than any other festivals ...happiness (plastics), what ever it gives reason to smile on each n every f ace...reason to be happy or come closer to every one ....special in family better to closer on es and get time to communicate...m lucky surrounded by lots of people (family members) and having wonderful ti me ...of the season ...( worst thing is after whole day passes such  deep dark in ma heart or felling nothing ...silence ...dark silence... ) And without any reason being so busy ...with ...social calls ...or the formalities...good thing is m become too comfortable with this formalities or bei ng plastic ...that makes people comfortable with  me ...    ti me passing too fast ...WAQt is not changing ...but moving fast ...hoping to change not for moving... this year or last year come up with lots of thing ...got few bad months in raw ....still struggling ...to out ...n next few months are busy...for ever...

so busy days and weeks .!! can't handle ma mind feels like time is running so fast ...seriously didn't able to remember when i got a deep sleep... something or so many things are running in ma mind ...i always feels like time is killing me .!! life is moving so fast nothing is changed just time is moving too fast ...how fast  i seriously don't remember any thing from the past hour ...needed to calm down or wanted to relaxation from the current situation... is the confusing can't judge any thing ...it some how feels nothing is favoring me...not a single bit ...it's all by just got a good news followed by worst .!! some times it feels like ...outer cyclone is too small or nothing compare to inner.!! m not fighting or running from any one...than ma self .!! seriously i want change and m trying to make those change ...but i loosed .!! ant how it feels like in-ways m wrong .?? or may be m not at all.!! but time says yes M..! people says changes are the beautiful...ser...

fri-Day  27th july, 2012  ...is for "hingodgadh"...place is awesome ...but  place doesn't make any difference matters is company.!! m with classmates ...doesn't know some how most of are friends  now ...ya it is great time ...n the memories for lifetime ...                       we never remembers days n hours or people, after time we will forget them that is for sure ...but some days n moments oR people are remarkable we can't forget them ...it always gives pleasure ...to live more... to win more .!! this is like festival... to forget every thing ...n to enjoy the moment ...   " .. .kON JaNE K OnsA pAl  Ap Ko  'KHUSI'  dE jAye. . . Or aAp u SE Z i n D a G i BHAr aApni aAk ho mE l kar ch Ale.!?".. .you never know which moMent ...will give u...reason to liVe moRe...to fly hiGh .?! ...        ...

I n   b e a u t i f u l view of sunset...i think red color is most beautiful in sunset only ...seriously it feels such good or comfortable in thins kind of beauty ...in ways i like  nature ...i like nature silence a lot they speaks nope actually the tech's a lot...about  lots of thing.!! in ma life having different colors ( people ) as we all have... colors effects T=your life a lot ...in any cases...in ma case dark colors ( situation of life ) effects me ... a lot ...in many ways !!! i don't why but it is... feels like ...in dark ...may be m not .!!  worst thing about dark is not able to understand ...we are in or not ...can not able to judge.!! dark colors of life .!! u can find some colors ( people ) can not match u.!!  better not mix those color in ur life .!! c o l l O r s o f   l i G h t . . . dark colors always mix all colors in them but that's not happen darken life ...in dark's ur truth ...is biggest lie.!!  even  ur mixing color...

some how it feels or sounds like new feelings but m not much comfortable with it...i just remember ma childhood ...remembering with starting rainy days new year of school to start ...i think for children's monsoon is the new year ...going to school with new dress , books n bag...hoping of bright feature...at all end it is new thing is to start ...   so soon rainy days have to come...i heard this is session is of love that' s  what i feel to day...i really didn't like this session much but this times it sounds like new...so beautiful felling s...n lots things coming in ma mind ...i don't what is beautiful is about but it's quite awesome ...i must say one thing , rain breeze amazing feeling... covering new books with khaki ,news paper ,transparent papers n white papers ...stick a name sticker on the book n smell  the new books ( another amazing breeeeze) ... i don't know why this is all things are coming in front of me ...when roaming on the road after ...