jinen kothari

It all started that spring morning, She was sleeping on the classroom desk, the morning sun was glowing on her face and I just fall her. Her calmness and passionate simplicity were killing my nerves. These were our college days, So I was thinking to ask her out and being together. But she is completely different from me. I'm like smart, charming, literally impassionate and outspoken, I can talk to anyone on campus. She is a shy, conservative personality. She was a topper and I was the back bencher. If I refer to rabbit and tortoise story. I'm a rabbit and she is a turtle. In the last paper of 3rd semester, I nudge her to meet at the library and at that meeting I asked her! and I got a reality check ;). Seriously that hurt my ego. Till the time, I reach to bus-stop bubble has burst out. That day you realize friends are 'haramisssss'. Though they and her friends not just warned me but told me she will REJECT you but I wanted to be the hero and for the next 3 semesters, fr...

Cheapest and most pleasuring entertainment is reading. And I do read. It allows you to imagine and make your story to forgot things in it. And some time same as your situation. So you feel it. Too high too low or too fast too slow, paradox. If life stops you make you too rest, when everything falls apart, Even shadow lives you!!! And Nightmares are your friend. It opens all. the things you did knowingly or unknowingly. Some times we did some serious damage to someone's life emotionally or may be in some other way. Then you make list you apologies and you do "pratikamn" for that. Is this "karma"!!! Other thing you show family or friends getting married or having baby. They sent you invitations and families now. or you are still messed up in your relationships or paths. Are you "jealous" or "lonely".!!! It is those things that makes you feel you are victim. That is worst case remember at some  time you want that. So apologies but ...

It will take away every ting from you. You End up doing everything and nothing. It puts you in chaos. And thing about chaos is it's always fare. With all the abilities or all the knowledge you can't do any thing. Everything asks you questions & most of the time yo don't know any answers. If you reach out to people they say you can't do this! you have no experience! you are not suitable. why you did this and why you did that!!! And at the end you kept asking your self what's wrong with me!!! Why its happening to me!!! cant we ever pursue what we want do??? Is I am doing hard work??? Is I am in right path!!! @last you broke. You are just dead to everyone. It is not them  its you. you must stop that lust of people understand you. You have to love them only & it will conquer everything. Never ever fight it cause it will cost you more than anyone else. Accept that pain no one else could.   You have to be discipline. Discipline your body, Discipline y...

Yesterday Read something that has been in my mind for long and I have no words to express. "Human body is sense to repeat the same thing": the virtue of ignorance This is what truth about all the people around you: same sense, love, the material only thing different is a body. No one allows new aggregation  in any system because it threatens the anarchy And biggest thing is hate their eGo. But its not about this its about that Girl. We met a few years back. She is beautiful Kat that I had. One of the great things between us is chemistry. Our meet is like one of the mysteries of life. It's new, quite energetic. I don't know her for the long but I do know her the closest. we didn't even spend that much time together yet it didn't require @ all. Even in that shorter time period we fight more often than we talk, time comes we fought/hurt enough that it comes to end. (I don't know why we fight in relationships.) If you don't like just split. ...

its been 2015!!! Year started as exited as new year. Does that chage any thing! No it doesn't chage any thing it is just like another day! just calender chage date or it gives hope that our next days will be batter. All i think is 2014 that gives me lot pain yet it makes me to understand it more than any thing. Only thing you can be sure the pain is that it will be there. Everyone us has different kind of pain. And we are strt doing the stuff too gey away with it, some may try to igoner those pain. don't give dam!!! about actual they are getting obsesed about it. I have been try all this thing I try to run away from the pain, I tried to igoner it and guess what it didn't work out. We must under stad that this pain is will be there you have to make your peace for us. You can not make people to do somehting untill dip down that don't want to do it. You can't make them understand you, you can't make them love you, you can't make them ...

Be the change you wish in the world. All of us ever wanted is something new, updated. We demands for some update either (mostly) positive or negative. Nothing in life stays the same. Every moment something is going on something around you is expanding or shrinking. It doesn’t matter you are part of it or not. What matters is change. Somewhere somehow every little being within you is changing too. THERE are no ordinary moments! We wish so many things not to change. Even those things are going to change never nothing remains still. It all goes on. We have to meditate this changes. And try to remain calm with this whole structure. Change is only permeant thing, special you are in journey. So many are left behind you, so many hearted by you. Family, friends, love and many more. Every things as time goes or changes happens that doesn’t matter.  You have to accept that pain, it doesn’t matter how it kills you all you have to accept that pain. Because you are chosen ...

For the years you sleep with next day goals and suddenly all is gone don’t know what is next step and where, why and how to do!!? All morning comes with worst nightmares of the life. Everyone single day there is rejections. How could one broke glass that has been already broken but this this theory not applicable in humans.  That they will destroy you, kill you, Pease you off. How many times you prove. Why to prove!? And more importantly what to prove! You can’t justify your every action. You can’t explain everything, you can’t be untruthful. You kept your silence. Let them destroy you. You kept on practice, love, smile and silence. And importantly forgive them it doesn’t matter how they are killing you. Matters is what how you come back, smile and love. Everyone now then has their point of existence. Some time we see them in family, work then fiends or love and society. They help you in your fights!!! Someone has nothing. They have to accept the pain, feel the pain eventuall...

Tear mera rista he kesa... So many things in life didn't get any closer. Like this blog started something and will end some where. so many stories remains untold.  Stops without hesitation. And when we ask why it stoped!?!  There is long pause ... or take deep breath n moves on. This causes deepest pain on heart, mind & soul. It is not just stories it pains when relationships are involved... when memories are there... memories are great some of them become history... @ the temptation point of history.. Some of them become mysterious... n become deepest breath of life. U will remember n it will dig little more. Destiny!?! Things can't moves without spiritual itch...  this memories ... makes you laugh and very next moment it is rolling from your eyes... loudest silence of life... Some asked where am I!?! M @ center of loneliness, restless ness, strain, deepest feeling of wanderlust. When we chose , we chose freedom for not freedom freedom from. People will see in oth...

Now only gets time to write on travels had lots of thoughts and lots of things are going around in life. One thing just took my heart away is highway the movie …more then that I love this movie because of story test. Life is journey the film says the same the journey inner self and to victory and to the peace and calm, silence. Something in me that influence me to make something big ... that make to forgot everything. And make me so grateful... someday that influence made me who I want to be…..”main jo mit bhi gaya to vajud ye mera sada tuj me rahe zinda” That one thing “dhoop pani pe barash jaye…” , only that one influence “tu hi humsath he, har duri sarmaye...” that one thing is with me everywhere   I go make big, beautiful, influence me make me, destroy me, believe me, …my every situation is you. “ye jeen bhi na jeena bhi he do no ka tuj se hi vasta me hi to hut era pata he dusra na koi rasta …aaye jo muj tak jo vo tum   k jo dudhnta , me ri khamosiyo me bhi tu bo...