jinen kothari

another month feels like it all running so fast .!! without any breaks..!? so many things happening around me ...new, best, bad ,good ,.....worst .....m loving all this....more importantly it is more surprising, exciting, happy moments....best thing among all this is something is about to change!.! new things are about happen, on other hand something  to lose...n reality.!!! heart is beating in each moment .... when i look  for this 4 years...nothing to remember n still lot to.!! or may be i forget things easily .!! m never looking backwards in any thing...done is done it can't be undone!!! important is m changed....a lot change .!! 4 years passed, just like i flicked...for moment n 4 years.!! in one flick of eye i learn a lot.!! got something?!! lose something!?! love something!!? ... i know my belief when i got admission ...that we together for bringing new culture...n we all made new society!?? with all the old things love, fights, work, fun, happiness, sadness( exams,...

finally after two weeks laptop is back from service station ...so many things happen ...n lot to learn !!! stay away from technology ....that give me break from all the things. !? i think some time we find life in some thing or person or objects.!! this all are illusion, some where feels like reality. we all does this thing, we are getting crazy, made and loose of control on mind, passions, love,faith !?! some time mind temper such high, feels like it will blast on!!! and we are confused why so angry!!! what is the reason behind it....why this all why m so angry ...what we need!! why can't I leave  normal life.!? and mind blasting with so many questionsss!!! and that's the point we thought about that thing!!! this is all i have ...if i can do this i can do any thing!.! "jIT "  or win something that make you some thing better, what your looking for in life is that thing, some time it is just to make coffee and some time to win car race. all this task is are like clim...

1 moment ...take's me  to Vally of dreams. another to hell. fells like  how beautiful  world is!!!  has  lots of color. and life is co some of those color. color love, sadness, happiness, power, friendship, courage, fights n so more... we have life, if we live the moment, n nothing  in the moment.  last Sunday there was reunion party of school class mates. fells like this half decade changed. every thing person, relations, every thi n g only one thing is familiar. " faces!!! ". with all wonder  people are so different.how ever  only one thing connect us school, our childhood. and memories. what ever fells like heart skip one bit. after long time ma heart is melt with all feelings. this thing make me realize have feelings. yeah we have some thing. this kind of moment like never to go. someone stop the time. i want to live this moment. few more seconds... i feels like in this moments. m sear c h ing ma life. may be this moments give th...

  Shah Rukh Khan reality behind the successful is worst, we always show best part of it rather i must say successful person shows us!!! they wanna do it, they do it what ever the odds. we life is whore bitch n we have play most of it. no way no escape it. we all mean to leave on the earth. don't go for finding your way, design it. leave with hope and keep working. there is no better way to leave life more than that. i believe life is how soon u make harmony between reality and dream. if we want to do it, someday we sure we will find way how to do it. never blame things make harmony with it will painful but u have to make it.coz doesn't matter where u born matter is where you die. keep working. u have to walk alone on your path make it beautiful or worst. love it. love your work, " kyuki aap use ruth jaye ge to vo aap ko zarur mana lega ek din to...". one thing i ever notice behind every sense of humor there is naked truth.(" has...

huh.!! still nothing ...does m pursuing? or not?!! so many doubts & questions. and as time goes make me so uncomfortable.  more and more hole inside me. and nothing to fell for things and people are becoming more plastic as days passes and so does i. still negative.!! seeing only negativity around me. start hurting me. y to me. needed so much passions and calm. night thoughts are the worst they have negativity.but as get darken you have only thoughts nothing else, one to another to next to next.and going and going. but darken clouds are the face of life. you have to pass it go through it. DREAM fight HOPE love. this is what all u have. with all we have the worst est thing expect ion. yes we have all have it. and we didn't get it. dream is hurt we start fighting, hope broken. and love is what you all have.  if you love it you. start hoping and dreaming. and sure fight for it. i don't know why to stop. or the limit is this way to all give up. you know the pe...

2 months what can happen in it.?? a lot!!! but what happen when you found your self at same.!! nothing is changed, same things, same problem, same loss just like time is moving but your nothing in that your still all same. every thing is new escape you.!! don't know why..it all with me still no changes...need lots of changes ...it's true you loss you where alone and you win you are alone.!!and at the both time you need to  give lots of answers but why??? many times you don't know any thing or seriously you don't have any answers!!! and then people think you is the reason for why he is there!!! feel nothing kept ma self working and busy with something so no time to think over any thing happens...may be is this the reason why m expecting from work!!! or may be is this the reason m not won yet.!! keep passions ...but keeping of passions people do thing he is not trying or doing nothing!!! why do people expecting more from your best and worst time!! and questions answe...

finally viva is completed and ...long college hours are over ...don't know why but it all feels long days without any bit of work ...m gonna tired a lot seriously don't like to prepare for next day ...but what ever already crack it very successfully ...n reading time is begin ...may 24-25 days ...n after that finally concluding ma bachelors...or final semester ... reading time is just started ...as usually start reading n making schedules for the time n gonna strictly following those timings ...all priorities is for ma reading and subjects that are going to conclude ...by the day ...like all the reading from the beginning( may be from12th or 10th don't really remember seriously...) m making planes and follow them very hardly ...m used to with those things...working hard or not don't know but ....m trying ma best to crack every thing ...but the strange thing happens no results may be m expecting too much ...or may be m not working properly .!? what ever the reason ther...

Diwali ...  most colorful  festival than any other festivals ...happiness (plastics), what ever it gives reason to smile on each n every f ace...reason to be happy or come closer to every one ....special in family better to closer on es and get time to communicate...m lucky surrounded by lots of people (family members) and having wonderful ti me ...of the season ...( worst thing is after whole day passes such  deep dark in ma heart or felling nothing ...silence ...dark silence... ) And without any reason being so busy ...with ...social calls ...or the formalities...good thing is m become too comfortable with this formalities or bei ng plastic ...that makes people comfortable with  me ...    ti me passing too fast ...WAQt is not changing ...but moving fast ...hoping to change not for moving... this year or last year come up with lots of thing ...got few bad months in raw ....still struggling ...to out ...n next few months are busy...for ever...

so busy days and weeks .!! can't handle ma mind feels like time is running so fast ...seriously didn't able to remember when i got a deep sleep... something or so many things are running in ma mind ...i always feels like time is killing me .!! life is moving so fast nothing is changed just time is moving too fast ...how fast  i seriously don't remember any thing from the past hour ...needed to calm down or wanted to relaxation from the current situation... is the confusing can't judge any thing ...it some how feels nothing is favoring me...not a single bit ...it's all by just got a good news followed by worst .!! some times it feels like ...outer cyclone is too small or nothing compare to inner.!! m not fighting or running from any one...than ma self .!! seriously i want change and m trying to make those change ...but i loosed .!! ant how it feels like in-ways m wrong .?? or may be m not at all.!! but time says yes M..! people says changes are the beautiful...ser...

fri-Day  27th july, 2012  ...is for "hingodgadh"...place is awesome ...but  place doesn't make any difference matters is company.!! m with classmates ...doesn't know some how most of are friends  now ...ya it is great time ...n the memories for lifetime ...                       we never remembers days n hours or people, after time we will forget them that is for sure ...but some days n moments oR people are remarkable we can't forget them ...it always gives pleasure ...to live more... to win more .!! this is like festival... to forget every thing ...n to enjoy the moment ...   " .. .kON JaNE K OnsA pAl  Ap Ko  'KHUSI'  dE jAye. . . Or aAp u SE Z i n D a G i BHAr aApni aAk ho mE l kar ch Ale.!?".. .you never know which moMent ...will give u...reason to liVe moRe...to fly hiGh .?! ...        ...

I n   b e a u t i f u l view of sunset...i think red color is most beautiful in sunset only ...seriously it feels such good or comfortable in thins kind of beauty ...in ways i like  nature ...i like nature silence a lot they speaks nope actually the tech's a lot...about  lots of thing.!! in ma life having different colors ( people ) as we all have... colors effects T=your life a lot ...in any cases...in ma case dark colors ( situation of life ) effects me ... a lot ...in many ways !!! i don't why but it is... feels like ...in dark ...may be m not .!!  worst thing about dark is not able to understand ...we are in or not ...can not able to judge.!! dark colors of life .!! u can find some colors ( people ) can not match u.!!  better not mix those color in ur life .!! c o l l O r s o f   l i G h t . . . dark colors always mix all colors in them but that's not happen darken life ...in dark's ur truth ...is biggest lie.!!  even  ur mixing color...

some how it feels or sounds like new feelings but m not much comfortable with it...i just remember ma childhood ...remembering with starting rainy days new year of school to start ...i think for children's monsoon is the new year ...going to school with new dress , books n bag...hoping of bright feature...at all end it is new thing is to start ...   so soon rainy days have to come...i heard this is session is of love that' s  what i feel to day...i really didn't like this session much but this times it sounds like new...so beautiful felling s...n lots things coming in ma mind ...i don't what is beautiful is about but it's quite awesome ...i must say one thing , rain breeze amazing feeling... covering new books with khaki ,news paper ,transparent papers n white papers ...stick a name sticker on the book n smell  the new books ( another amazing breeeeze) ... i don't know why this is all things are coming in front of me ...when roaming on the road after ...