jinen kothari

Silence has been broken with storm. whole your life you are attract the people, things and all the circumvents happing and that is attracted by you. Many times we attract very wrong people or the events that follows.Environment does affect on us one or another way, We like to connect with society to find our existence. Specially when you are in the age of quantum leap, you want able to judge, what's wrong or right.   "Here nothing is in acceptances or rejections, what ever it is, is in your BELIEF" So I meet Kat after period. The moment is froze, there is noting to say, noting for explanation, Uncontrolled flows of emptions. heart is beating so slow like it misses its beat... "Its so calm its look like chaos."  There is noting changed or everything is after that. Your happiness is here,so strong, so pure, so positive, so beyond that's with you every moments, when you are pushing boundaries, when you are cutting the age. Those memories are so ...

Random reads of  OSHO... पहली तो बात हर किसी में साहस है। तुम्हें बचपन से ही इसका उपयोग करने नहीं दिया जाता। सारा समाज तुम्हें कायर बना देना चाहता है। समाज को कायरों की बहुत जरूरत है, क्योंकि समाज की उत्सुकता तुम्हें गुलाम बनाने में है। माता-पिता चाहते हैं कि तुम आज्ञाकारी बनो। तुम्हारा साहस शायद तुम्हें आज्ञाकारी न होने दे। तुम्हारे शिक्षक चाहते हैं कि तुम उनकी हर बात बिना प्रश्न उठाए स्वीकार कर लो; और फिर अगर तुममें साहस होगा तो तुम प्रश्न भी पूछ सकते हो। तुम्हारे पंडित पुरोहित चाहते हैं कि तुम उन पर भरोसा और विश्वास करो लेकिन तुम्हारा साहस संदेह निर्मित कर सकता है सभी निहित स्वार्थ साहस के, जो कि तुम्हारे व्यक्तित्व का स्वाभाविक अंग है, विरोध में है। कोई भी जन्म से कायर नहीं होता, कायर निर्मित किए जाते हैं। हर बच्चा साहसी होता है। मुझे आज तक कोई एक भी ऐसा बच्चा नहीं मिला है, जो साहसी न हो। क्या हो जाता है? यह गुण कहाँ खो जाता है? वही बच्चा, जब वह विश्वविद्यालय से बाहर आता है, कायर होता है। तुम्हारी सारी शिक्षा, तुम्हारा सभी धर्म, तुम्हारा पूरा समाज, तुम्हारे सभी संबंध- ...

Better late then never... Happpy New Year to me!!! So birthday is all about you are getting older and you must be happy about it. Sometimes it all feels like as last year or past years but its never be same, every things will changed after years. You can't be same you as you are last year. Things, you, situations, dreams, relationships are changed. Some birthdays... you feel like you are prince... next year why even you are born. Some relationships comes from dead and more & more they all are nice to you, And You do same. So this how you judge people. its fun to do so but you cannot love people if you judge them. Love them because they are fighting their own demons. so be nice to them, be thankful to them. Still learning lot emotions and yet don't know some. Honestly feels like so small like no existence of mine. Like in morning there is no reason  to wake up... some times in nights I woke up and watch street road... other time I cried out loud...some ti...

Cheapest and most pleasuring entertainment is reading. And I do read. It allows you to imagine and make your story to forgot things in it. And some time same as your situation. So you feel it. Too high too low or too fast too slow, paradox. If life stops you make you too rest, when everything falls apart, Even shadow lives you!!! And Nightmares are your friend. It opens all. the things you did knowingly or unknowingly. Some times we did some serious damage to someone's life emotionally or may be in some other way. Then you make list you apologies and you do "pratikamn" for that. Is this "karma"!!! Other thing you show family or friends getting married or having baby. They sent you invitations and families now. or you are still messed up in your relationships or paths. Are you "jealous" or "lonely".!!! It is those things that makes you feel you are victim. That is worst case remember at some  time you want that. So apologies but ...

It will take away every ting from you. You End up doing everything and nothing. It puts you in chaos. And thing about chaos is it's always fare. With all the abilities or all the knowledge you can't do any thing. Everything asks you questions & most of the time yo don't know any answers. If you reach out to people they say you can't do this! you have no experience! you are not suitable. why you did this and why you did that!!! And at the end you kept asking your self what's wrong with me!!! Why its happening to me!!! cant we ever pursue what we want do??? Is I am doing hard work??? Is I am in right path!!! @last you broke. You are just dead to everyone. It is not them  its you. you must stop that lust of people understand you. You have to love them only & it will conquer everything. Never ever fight it cause it will cost you more than anyone else. Accept that pain no one else could.   You have to be discipline. Discipline your body, Discipline y...

So question is why Write blog. Don't write to be understand, write not to misunderstood. (Random read) So this been official traveling year. Like every next week m going some where.  Its good gives me time to be with me, know my self strangers. Time to think write. Major blogs written this year are on the way to some where. Like so many things are predicted that women showing you where to jump, oxygen mask there that TC always asking for original ID. They all look like same to me with different colors. Only good thing in them is they took only few sec or mins. only. After that couple the love birds. They are 2 types typical Indian or improved Indian like they took all the responsibility of society gathering they are trying to connect with everyone and some are exactly opposite as they don't give crap about you. Improved couple gets just intimate. They are playful they environment more alive. What happens when love birds meets ... family :p This people are like bunch ...

Yesterday Read something that has been in my mind for long and I have no words to express. "Human body is sense to repeat the same thing": the virtue of ignorance This is what truth about all the people around you: same sense, love, the material only thing different is a body. No one allows new aggregation  in any system because it threatens the anarchy And biggest thing is hate their eGo. But its not about this its about that Girl. We met a few years back. She is beautiful Kat that I had. One of the great things between us is chemistry. Our meet is like one of the mysteries of life. It's new, quite energetic. I don't know her for the long but I do know her the closest. we didn't even spend that much time together yet it didn't require @ all. Even in that shorter time period we fight more often than we talk, time comes we fought/hurt enough that it comes to end. (I don't know why we fight in relationships.) If you don't like just split. ...

its been 2015!!! Year started as exited as new year. Does that chage any thing! No it doesn't chage any thing it is just like another day! just calender chage date or it gives hope that our next days will be batter. All i think is 2014 that gives me lot pain yet it makes me to understand it more than any thing. Only thing you can be sure the pain is that it will be there. Everyone us has different kind of pain. And we are strt doing the stuff too gey away with it, some may try to igoner those pain. don't give dam!!! about actual they are getting obsesed about it. I have been try all this thing I try to run away from the pain, I tried to igoner it and guess what it didn't work out. We must under stad that this pain is will be there you have to make your peace for us. You can not make people to do somehting untill dip down that don't want to do it. You can't make them understand you, you can't make them love you, you can't make them ...

Happy thanks giving! Every society around the world is says it is good to be thankful. Every year what we are thankful for!!! if we count lots things are there! so quite  diplomatic answer!!! life goes on it doesn't matter what we think what we do... it goes on & it has to be. "show must go on!!!" new years morning comes with great hopes most possibilities and resolution or too many prophets. such as 2014 for me. 31st night with friends warm. so does  morning. that days will be brighten our year will high on every aspect. Here new year is coming soon. So many things are quite same as last year on some aspect there are many opportunities... As the year started so many roads are started and many are closed. as years goes those open roads closed. It is like every next month there is new loss. Like moral or economical or  physically or ethically. every next month i brooked into pieces not just that people are coming and killing me. It is like they are removing a...

Be the change you wish in the world. All of us ever wanted is something new, updated. We demands for some update either (mostly) positive or negative. Nothing in life stays the same. Every moment something is going on something around you is expanding or shrinking. It doesn’t matter you are part of it or not. What matters is change. Somewhere somehow every little being within you is changing too. THERE are no ordinary moments! We wish so many things not to change. Even those things are going to change never nothing remains still. It all goes on. We have to meditate this changes. And try to remain calm with this whole structure. Change is only permeant thing, special you are in journey. So many are left behind you, so many hearted by you. Family, friends, love and many more. Every things as time goes or changes happens that doesn’t matter.  You have to accept that pain, it doesn’t matter how it kills you all you have to accept that pain. Because you are chosen ...

For the years you sleep with next day goals and suddenly all is gone don’t know what is next step and where, why and how to do!!? All morning comes with worst nightmares of the life. Everyone single day there is rejections. How could one broke glass that has been already broken but this this theory not applicable in humans.  That they will destroy you, kill you, Pease you off. How many times you prove. Why to prove!? And more importantly what to prove! You can’t justify your every action. You can’t explain everything, you can’t be untruthful. You kept your silence. Let them destroy you. You kept on practice, love, smile and silence. And importantly forgive them it doesn’t matter how they are killing you. Matters is what how you come back, smile and love. Everyone now then has their point of existence. Some time we see them in family, work then fiends or love and society. They help you in your fights!!! Someone has nothing. They have to accept the pain, feel the pain eventuall...

Tear mera rista he kesa... So many things in life didn't get any closer. Like this blog started something and will end some where. so many stories remains untold.  Stops without hesitation. And when we ask why it stoped!?!  There is long pause ... or take deep breath n moves on. This causes deepest pain on heart, mind & soul. It is not just stories it pains when relationships are involved... when memories are there... memories are great some of them become history... @ the temptation point of history.. Some of them become mysterious... n become deepest breath of life. U will remember n it will dig little more. Destiny!?! Things can't moves without spiritual itch...  this memories ... makes you laugh and very next moment it is rolling from your eyes... loudest silence of life... Some asked where am I!?! M @ center of loneliness, restless ness, strain, deepest feeling of wanderlust. When we chose , we chose freedom for not freedom freedom from. People will see in oth...

One year, one job, one love!!!And lots of things and now concluding all those things. Lots of memory, experience, love!!! People… Everyone is living by purpose of their own. Most likely i do feel like people living life in the some adjustment towards life, family, and friends or may be m wrong I do feel like or may be m too independent. Don’t know and really ask me don’t w ant to know. Life has lots of surprises even they come in the ways when yo u are not expected. Lots of things we expecting for the life time. And you expecting them from a lot or everything you expect that your craziest (something in you is much bigger than what you are) supports you, feels you and be there for you. And that is all your in head. May they have their own issues or problems… OSHO said Man who loves the power he never fall in love and if he does, he never admit it. I thought this is the pay. For the independence or this is nothing. Lots time I think what to trust on what they are doing or w...

Now only gets time to write on travels had lots of thoughts and lots of things are going around in life. One thing just took my heart away is highway the movie …more then that I love this movie because of story test. Life is journey the film says the same the journey inner self and to victory and to the peace and calm, silence. Something in me that influence me to make something big ... that make to forgot everything. And make me so grateful... someday that influence made me who I want to be…..”main jo mit bhi gaya to vajud ye mera sada tuj me rahe zinda” That one thing “dhoop pani pe barash jaye…” , only that one influence “tu hi humsath he, har duri sarmaye...” that one thing is with me everywhere   I go make big, beautiful, influence me make me, destroy me, believe me, …my every situation is you. “ye jeen bhi na jeena bhi he do no ka tuj se hi vasta me hi to hut era pata he dusra na koi rasta …aaye jo muj tak jo vo tum   k jo dudhnta , me ri khamosiyo me bhi tu bo...