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Happpy navaratri!!!! So many things happen that was completely unexpected.  And like worse nightmare. You stand by for people for in hope that they will stand by @worst.  Fortunately I have learned this in last few months. You are doing it for shake this thing should happen nothing more than that.Another one people will take you for granted if you are available. Main taan gul se lipti titli ki tarah muhajir hoon Ek pal ko thehroon, pal mein udd jaaun Best thing I get to know is that journey is more beautiful then destination and you will be alone on top & bottom. I have been in both sides. You have to choose to you are @top or @bottom because all the places are same in ways. What if you losses what did you lose & what happens if you win what you won. The Survive is the only option to be happy. Things must be done because it must be done or it’s new or there is no other reason. The survive is the journey of Lone to Alone. Make yourself for alone and...

Happpy Monsoon!!! Nothing is like monsoon breeze. Always been wonderful and chilled. What's freedom? Freedom is get out of something. As human we have tendency to control destiny, people, faith and almost every thing and on other hand we need freedom. We go on break and vacation to find freedom. People who wants to control his destiny they become workaholic for their freedom. Others who wants to control people they become politicization. Control faith they become Baba's or now spiritual guide. They want to sell this things because they wants freedom from those things. Everyone is running to control freedom. Every day each of us finding freedom from some thoughts and feelings that's the reason of mood swing's.  Why we are not free? The core problem is this. To be absolute free and relax is to give freedom to others. Let their thoughts and actions be free.  Control them if it's wrong then and only then change them.  To polish your ego don't...

It's Summer!!! I am loving it. Summer will be here soon. And everyone is on vacation or planning for vacation. Kids are on street playing around and planning for mama's home. Schools are over and results are about to come. Mango's are out there and everyone is after there. :p I could feel those memories with me those dry hot empty street roads. Chilling mango shakes and ocean winds touching you and that get long last in memory. Games, fun, Late night talks and next morning getting ready for picnics. At that time no one knows these is going for last in your memory. You can see through windows but you can not leave it back. And as time grows things change. But no thing is change only people are changed else we all are doing  same thing  chilling in gardens and all the fun. only things is change  is people you are interacting with. It is not that we don't want those people. Silent school buildings at the very next day after vacation starts. Schools become ...

Summer is knocking, but seems like whether is still confused with session.  Morning feels like winter followed by monsoon and summer in day. It's been tough winter for me lot physical hurdles. Sometimes life forces us to collect materials and you go collect them with empty soul. It doesn't matter you gain or loose your soul remains empty. And if you gain you start believing something and you become slave of that belief or you loose you become slave of other belief and life becomes shorter for you. We are at same two frog story, well frog won't accept that world is much more bigger than well walls. " Less people know, the more stubbornly they know it. "   - Osho We all stuck with the same story one or another way. We need to get out of it. It's going to be hard, fearful, unknown, wild more importantly it's going to be mysterious. It forces you to know more, love more, faith more, explore more and embarrass life. "The faithful are m...

Happpy new year!!! New Year is here,resolution, greetings, celebrations and at the end hope, everything will be alright. New wind will took us to sky!!! Breeze of fresh air, fire cracks, music, dance, cheers , hugs and kissses. We miss something, enjoy something, celebrate something, cheers loud, crack the fires, opens champion, king's food, naughty nights parties through all night and Next day we enjoy hangovers :p :p :p I celebrated in chili whether and arms of love. Nothing new, surprisingly  everything is normal and that's bigger deal.We have so many celebration's b'dys, new year, anniversary's ... or we have  DATES !!! we got older or grownup. In many cases those are the same???In mine case I end up with questions!!! Does I am the same racer, Fighting same fight, Leading to same, does end is same!!! Am I pursuing same just body is differs. And you know what answer always comes NO!!! And when-ever comes yes I look @ my family, friends, carrier and ...

Happy thanksgiving! It's been long for writing / blogging.  Read some where: "There is always something to be thankful." Too small two words, But has very powerful meanings. We might thought "Thank you" is for others, why we thankful for something we bought, something we rented, But we must that will help us,  It keeps us rooted, gives feeling of 'US',shows quality of thoughts, shows yours deeper commitment that how hard it is  I will fight till the end, motivates you to do more and let the good come and dirt go away. To be thankful means you are changing your views of world, problems, responsibility, energies, after thanking you are at peace, you have no harsh, you have no hate feelings and  You can forgot past because you already made peace with it, took the leap. Gratefulness brings joy, it is all you need.  Kis lamhe ne thaami ungli meri  Phusla ke mujhko le chala Nange paaon daudi aankhein meri Khwabon ki saari bas...

Silence has been broken with storm. whole your life you are attract the people, things and all the circumvents happing and that is attracted by you. Many times we attract very wrong people or the events that follows.Environment does affect on us one or another way, We like to connect with society to find our existence. Specially when you are in the age of quantum leap, you want able to judge, what's wrong or right.   "Here nothing is in acceptances or rejections, what ever it is, is in your BELIEF" So I meet Kat after period. The moment is froze, there is noting to say, noting for explanation, Uncontrolled flows of emptions. heart is beating so slow like it misses its beat... "Its so calm its look like chaos."  There is noting changed or everything is after that. Your happiness is here,so strong, so pure, so positive, so beyond that's with you every moments, when you are pushing boundaries, when you are cutting the age. Those memories are so ...

Random reads of  OSHO... पहली तो बात हर किसी में साहस है। तुम्हें बचपन से ही इसका उपयोग करने नहीं दिया जाता। सारा समाज तुम्हें कायर बना देना चाहता है। समाज को कायरों की बहुत जरूरत है, क्योंकि समाज की उत्सुकता तुम्हें गुलाम बनाने में है। माता-पिता चाहते हैं कि तुम आज्ञाकारी बनो। तुम्हारा साहस शायद तुम्हें आज्ञाकारी न होने दे। तुम्हारे शिक्षक चाहते हैं कि तुम उनकी हर बात बिना प्रश्न उठाए स्वीकार कर लो; और फिर अगर तुममें साहस होगा तो तुम प्रश्न भी पूछ सकते हो। तुम्हारे पंडित पुरोहित चाहते हैं कि तुम उन पर भरोसा और विश्वास करो लेकिन तुम्हारा साहस संदेह निर्मित कर सकता है सभी निहित स्वार्थ साहस के, जो कि तुम्हारे व्यक्तित्व का स्वाभाविक अंग है, विरोध में है। कोई भी जन्म से कायर नहीं होता, कायर निर्मित किए जाते हैं। हर बच्चा साहसी होता है। मुझे आज तक कोई एक भी ऐसा बच्चा नहीं मिला है, जो साहसी न हो। क्या हो जाता है? यह गुण कहाँ खो जाता है? वही बच्चा, जब वह विश्वविद्यालय से बाहर आता है, कायर होता है। तुम्हारी सारी शिक्षा, तुम्हारा सभी धर्म, तुम्हारा पूरा समाज, तुम्हारे सभी संबंध- ...

Better late then never... Happpy New Year to me!!! So birthday is all about you are getting older and you must be happy about it. Sometimes it all feels like as last year or past years but its never be same, every things will changed after years. You can't be same you as you are last year. Things, you, situations, dreams, relationships are changed. Some birthdays... you feel like you are prince... next year why even you are born. Some relationships comes from dead and more & more they all are nice to you, And You do same. So this how you judge people. its fun to do so but you cannot love people if you judge them. Love them because they are fighting their own demons. so be nice to them, be thankful to them. Still learning lot emotions and yet don't know some. Honestly feels like so small like no existence of mine. Like in morning there is no reason  to wake up... some times in nights I woke up and watch street road... other time I cried out loud...some ti...

Cheapest and most pleasuring entertainment is reading. And I do read. It allows you to imagine and make your story to forgot things in it. And some time same as your situation. So you feel it. Too high too low or too fast too slow, paradox. If life stops you make you too rest, when everything falls apart, Even shadow lives you!!! And Nightmares are your friend. It opens all. the things you did knowingly or unknowingly. Some times we did some serious damage to someone's life emotionally or may be in some other way. Then you make list you apologies and you do "pratikamn" for that. Is this "karma"!!! Other thing you show family or friends getting married or having baby. They sent you invitations and families now. or you are still messed up in your relationships or paths. Are you "jealous" or "lonely".!!! It is those things that makes you feel you are victim. That is worst case remember at some  time you want that. So apologies but ...

It will take away every ting from you. You End up doing everything and nothing. It puts you in chaos. And thing about chaos is it's always fare. With all the abilities or all the knowledge you can't do any thing. Everything asks you questions & most of the time yo don't know any answers. If you reach out to people they say you can't do this! you have no experience! you are not suitable. why you did this and why you did that!!! And at the end you kept asking your self what's wrong with me!!! Why its happening to me!!! cant we ever pursue what we want do??? Is I am doing hard work??? Is I am in right path!!! @last you broke. You are just dead to everyone. It is not them  its you. you must stop that lust of people understand you. You have to love them only & it will conquer everything. Never ever fight it cause it will cost you more than anyone else. Accept that pain no one else could.   You have to be discipline. Discipline your body, Discipline y...

So question is why Write blog. Don't write to be understand, write not to misunderstood. (Random read) So this been official traveling year. Like every next week m going some where.  Its good gives me time to be with me, know my self strangers. Time to think write. Major blogs written this year are on the way to some where. Like so many things are predicted that women showing you where to jump, oxygen mask there that TC always asking for original ID. They all look like same to me with different colors. Only good thing in them is they took only few sec or mins. only. After that couple the love birds. They are 2 types typical Indian or improved Indian like they took all the responsibility of society gathering they are trying to connect with everyone and some are exactly opposite as they don't give crap about you. Improved couple gets just intimate. They are playful they environment more alive. What happens when love birds meets ... family :p This people are like bunch ...

Yesterday Read something that has been in my mind for long and I have no words to express. "Human body is sense to repeat the same thing": the virtue of ignorance This is what truth about all the people around you: same sense, love, the material only thing different is a body. No one allows new aggregation  in any system because it threatens the anarchy And biggest thing is hate their eGo. But its not about this its about that Girl. We met a few years back. She is beautiful Kat that I had. One of the great things between us is chemistry. Our meet is like one of the mysteries of life. It's new, quite energetic. I don't know her for the long but I do know her the closest. we didn't even spend that much time together yet it didn't require @ all. Even in that shorter time period we fight more often than we talk, time comes we fought/hurt enough that it comes to end. (I don't know why we fight in relationships.) If you don't like just split. ...

its been 2015!!! Year started as exited as new year. Does that chage any thing! No it doesn't chage any thing it is just like another day! just calender chage date or it gives hope that our next days will be batter. All i think is 2014 that gives me lot pain yet it makes me to understand it more than any thing. Only thing you can be sure the pain is that it will be there. Everyone us has different kind of pain. And we are strt doing the stuff too gey away with it, some may try to igoner those pain. don't give dam!!! about actual they are getting obsesed about it. I have been try all this thing I try to run away from the pain, I tried to igoner it and guess what it didn't work out. We must under stad that this pain is will be there you have to make your peace for us. You can not make people to do somehting untill dip down that don't want to do it. You can't make them understand you, you can't make them love you, you can't make them ...