jinen kothari

Year of changes. They are good it has a fresh breeze. it’s been also a year of confusion. I found my self in lots of situation where I am not able to make a decision. These are feelings surely it will get away. Year of meeting childhood again. It’s a common tradition here to go to mama’s house for summer vacation. It was amazing and beautiful. Chemistry has been changed or I can say it’s been more emotional and sweet. :) Year of traveling as well. Average traveling 250-300km/monthly. Traveling in both mode self-drive and by bus. Went to the very eastern coast of Gujarat and southern coast of Gujarat. And yes seen tallest statue as well :D Year of surprises, learnings, and faithfulness. we can plan so many things life doesn’t work in that way. Life has its own plan and it’s beautiful. Faith in almighty or guts will last long. Its been learning year as well. What best I learned is” I don’t know”. Yes, it takes lots of courage and knowledge to say ‘I don’t know’.  Learning make...

Happy Diwali! Passions is key (for me) to unlock sucess! I have started changing things yet so many things to be changed. Many fears I have loosed and catched others. It's like rejection is key to sucess. I have been rejected over and over. Many times it's feel like talking black-hole, it's black dent sky with I can keep talking... Life is paradox. You are going in one direction and it will take you somewhere else. I can keep enjoying and have faith. Faith is big word now, I am literally questioning everything comes to me. Always trying dig ito details. Do you understand  diging into details? There is unnecessary difference, I have seen everyone is in this loop only. This difference is not just with others, with ourself as well. To become calm or to have more passions is to be faithful. I have to start believing. To believe is magnificent. It will attract all other requirements. To have faith every little thing will be ok. Lots of stories are there, every...

Happy summer!!! Sunny is hitting the roads, hot winds making us lazy. Laziest season of the year, No one likes to come out of bed in the morning and felling sleepy while working. As usual life is crazy with me, today just someone told me ‘ KARMA ’ is coming back to me and I saw things as accidents, sometimes accidents are more often then usual. How I see this accidents, I read somewhere : There where 3 people lifetime jailed due to false accuse of murder. After 20years at when they are going to released only 1 was alive. Journalists asked how did you survived? Answer was simpler “I found meaning to be alive.”   कुछ बात है कि हस्ती मिटती नहीं हमारी You were never be alone, your god has plan for you. You need to focus on your path goal. Your choices must to hit that bulls eye or closer to that bulls eye irrespective of how many noise around  you, nobody is with you. We need to walk alone on this tight robe. Blessings is what you have, you need to count those n...

It's new year!!! I have met all my loved ones and it always makes me happy to see them all. Winter morning with good breakfast and family drama makes me happy, I loved spent time like that. In any case I woke up earlier or it's been family's discipline. Apart from this holidays it's feels like mechanical life, you follow the timings at each moment during this days times flies like kite in sky. I loved to fly kites and yell and celebrate this days. As the years go I see it very differently. When I was kid there are some other people around me and now-days it's new. There is no new face, even ritual is not new we are doing it for the years. Sun seems like to be setting for now. They are getting older now, they like to sit together, talk and have good food. Time changed!!, New sun rising like we celebrate on this moments as well. What I feel like festival and dates. those are second for all of us. We need reason to celebrate with each other. Festival an...

From months I was thinking to write something, haven't get chance or importantly topics. Back to home town for Diwali : Festival of lights, family and new hopes. This quote can justify diwali. Darkness ca nnot stand the light.   You could be in darkest room, one flame can light up room within no time. As per indian tradition we tie 'Toran' on diwali. Ancient said we celebrate to welcome Lord Ram after his defect with Ravan and returning from exile of 14 years in Ramayana. The other reason return of Pandavas  after 12 year of exile.  People draws the R an goli at their welcome door. Rangoli symbolize welcome, new color of life. They worship goddesses Laxmi. Fire crackers symbolize victory over This is all for society what for us!!! Ask yourself what is new!!!, what is your rangoli!!, what you are victories off??? I have asked many Spritual guru, many time heard them they describe. How they have changed in years. Many of them failed to explain that that on new ...

Summer 😎! It's been so long that I have stopped reading almost 3-4 months haven't read anything new. Schedule becomes hectic like machine woke-up, take-bath, go to Mandir, office, lunch, dinner and calls. Weekends passes in repairing new things. Hence Year spent, couldn't spent year.  Sitting room watching sun burning outside. It's always like yesterday we just cam from street after playing and today we are so responsible today. How long it will take I am grown up man and kid anymore. But ti's been always when it lost. It's always been lost you can remember it, you can not do any thing  about it. Some are easily shift into circle of life, like it's not shift and for people like me it find really difficult to go to new page and very critical in social life 😛😉. Life doesn't stop or take reboot. We need to define our priorities and choose what to do now. And we can not compare situations instead we should start believing.

Life is fast seems like just six months back I am in collage and it’s going to be 4 years now. Exact amount of time we spend with each other we have been separated. So many of them never seen them before and few are very close. It’s not like we don’t care about each other it’s like we were too busy with our goals or life. Life is moving fast than ever before. Last year was roller-coaster ride, it’s like I am taking leap or I falling down either wise both are paradox. The deep will you go, you will be grow richer outside. If I meet any of the collage mates they have been very different it seems like they gown, responsible now, committed & more confident than ever again. You mate that guy yesterday how the hell he/she can change this much over night, but night was too long for me it’s been 4 years. Some of them are parents now (too early, I know but they choose that.) They are started syncing   What’s about me!! Where am I! Am I responsible! Am I now more committed! Or shou...

Happpy navaratri!!!! So many things happen that was completely unexpected.  And like worse nightmare. You stand by for people for in hope that they will stand by @worst.  Fortunately I have learned this in last few months. You are doing it for shake this thing should happen nothing more than that.Another one people will take you for granted if you are available. Main taan gul se lipti titli ki tarah muhajir hoon Ek pal ko thehroon, pal mein udd jaaun Best thing I get to know is that journey is more beautiful then destination and you will be alone on top & bottom. I have been in both sides. You have to choose to you are @top or @bottom because all the places are same in ways. What if you losses what did you lose & what happens if you win what you won. The Survive is the only option to be happy. Things must be done because it must be done or it’s new or there is no other reason. The survive is the journey of Lone to Alone. Make yourself for alone and...

Happpy Monsoon!!! Nothing is like monsoon breeze. Always been wonderful and chilled. What's freedom? Freedom is get out of something. As human we have tendency to control destiny, people, faith and almost every thing and on other hand we need freedom. We go on break and vacation to find freedom. People who wants to control his destiny they become workaholic for their freedom. Others who wants to control people they become politicization. Control faith they become Baba's or now spiritual guide. They want to sell this things because they wants freedom from those things. Everyone is running to control freedom. Every day each of us finding freedom from some thoughts and feelings that's the reason of mood swing's.  Why we are not free? The core problem is this. To be absolute free and relax is to give freedom to others. Let their thoughts and actions be free.  Control them if it's wrong then and only then change them.  To polish your ego don't...

It's Summer!!! I am loving it. Summer will be here soon. And everyone is on vacation or planning for vacation. Kids are on street playing around and planning for mama's home. Schools are over and results are about to come. Mango's are out there and everyone is after there. :p I could feel those memories with me those dry hot empty street roads. Chilling mango shakes and ocean winds touching you and that get long last in memory. Games, fun, Late night talks and next morning getting ready for picnics. At that time no one knows these is going for last in your memory. You can see through windows but you can not leave it back. And as time grows things change. But no thing is change only people are changed else we all are doing  same thing  chilling in gardens and all the fun. only things is change  is people you are interacting with. It is not that we don't want those people. Silent school buildings at the very next day after vacation starts. Schools become ...

Summer is knocking, but seems like whether is still confused with session.  Morning feels like winter followed by monsoon and summer in day. It's been tough winter for me lot physical hurdles. Sometimes life forces us to collect materials and you go collect them with empty soul. It doesn't matter you gain or loose your soul remains empty. And if you gain you start believing something and you become slave of that belief or you loose you become slave of other belief and life becomes shorter for you. We are at same two frog story, well frog won't accept that world is much more bigger than well walls. " Less people know, the more stubbornly they know it. "   - Osho We all stuck with the same story one or another way. We need to get out of it. It's going to be hard, fearful, unknown, wild more importantly it's going to be mysterious. It forces you to know more, love more, faith more, explore more and embarrass life. "The faithful are m...

Happpy new year!!! New Year is here,resolution, greetings, celebrations and at the end hope, everything will be alright. New wind will took us to sky!!! Breeze of fresh air, fire cracks, music, dance, cheers , hugs and kissses. We miss something, enjoy something, celebrate something, cheers loud, crack the fires, opens champion, king's food, naughty nights parties through all night and Next day we enjoy hangovers :p :p :p I celebrated in chili whether and arms of love. Nothing new, surprisingly  everything is normal and that's bigger deal.We have so many celebration's b'dys, new year, anniversary's ... or we have  DATES !!! we got older or grownup. In many cases those are the same???In mine case I end up with questions!!! Does I am the same racer, Fighting same fight, Leading to same, does end is same!!! Am I pursuing same just body is differs. And you know what answer always comes NO!!! And when-ever comes yes I look @ my family, friends, carrier and ...

Happy thanksgiving! It's been long for writing / blogging.  Read some where: "There is always something to be thankful." Too small two words, But has very powerful meanings. We might thought "Thank you" is for others, why we thankful for something we bought, something we rented, But we must that will help us,  It keeps us rooted, gives feeling of 'US',shows quality of thoughts, shows yours deeper commitment that how hard it is  I will fight till the end, motivates you to do more and let the good come and dirt go away. To be thankful means you are changing your views of world, problems, responsibility, energies, after thanking you are at peace, you have no harsh, you have no hate feelings and  You can forgot past because you already made peace with it, took the leap. Gratefulness brings joy, it is all you need.  Kis lamhe ne thaami ungli meri  Phusla ke mujhko le chala Nange paaon daudi aankhein meri Khwabon ki saari bas...

Silence has been broken with storm. whole your life you are attract the people, things and all the circumvents happing and that is attracted by you. Many times we attract very wrong people or the events that follows.Environment does affect on us one or another way, We like to connect with society to find our existence. Specially when you are in the age of quantum leap, you want able to judge, what's wrong or right.   "Here nothing is in acceptances or rejections, what ever it is, is in your BELIEF" So I meet Kat after period. The moment is froze, there is noting to say, noting for explanation, Uncontrolled flows of emptions. heart is beating so slow like it misses its beat... "Its so calm its look like chaos."  There is noting changed or everything is after that. Your happiness is here,so strong, so pure, so positive, so beyond that's with you every moments, when you are pushing boundaries, when you are cutting the age. Those memories are so ...

Random reads of  OSHO... पहली तो बात हर किसी में साहस है। तुम्हें बचपन से ही इसका उपयोग करने नहीं दिया जाता। सारा समाज तुम्हें कायर बना देना चाहता है। समाज को कायरों की बहुत जरूरत है, क्योंकि समाज की उत्सुकता तुम्हें गुलाम बनाने में है। माता-पिता चाहते हैं कि तुम आज्ञाकारी बनो। तुम्हारा साहस शायद तुम्हें आज्ञाकारी न होने दे। तुम्हारे शिक्षक चाहते हैं कि तुम उनकी हर बात बिना प्रश्न उठाए स्वीकार कर लो; और फिर अगर तुममें साहस होगा तो तुम प्रश्न भी पूछ सकते हो। तुम्हारे पंडित पुरोहित चाहते हैं कि तुम उन पर भरोसा और विश्वास करो लेकिन तुम्हारा साहस संदेह निर्मित कर सकता है सभी निहित स्वार्थ साहस के, जो कि तुम्हारे व्यक्तित्व का स्वाभाविक अंग है, विरोध में है। कोई भी जन्म से कायर नहीं होता, कायर निर्मित किए जाते हैं। हर बच्चा साहसी होता है। मुझे आज तक कोई एक भी ऐसा बच्चा नहीं मिला है, जो साहसी न हो। क्या हो जाता है? यह गुण कहाँ खो जाता है? वही बच्चा, जब वह विश्वविद्यालय से बाहर आता है, कायर होता है। तुम्हारी सारी शिक्षा, तुम्हारा सभी धर्म, तुम्हारा पूरा समाज, तुम्हारे सभी संबंध- ...

Better late then never... Happpy New Year to me!!! So birthday is all about you are getting older and you must be happy about it. Sometimes it all feels like as last year or past years but its never be same, every things will changed after years. You can't be same you as you are last year. Things, you, situations, dreams, relationships are changed. Some birthdays... you feel like you are prince... next year why even you are born. Some relationships comes from dead and more & more they all are nice to you, And You do same. So this how you judge people. its fun to do so but you cannot love people if you judge them. Love them because they are fighting their own demons. so be nice to them, be thankful to them. Still learning lot emotions and yet don't know some. Honestly feels like so small like no existence of mine. Like in morning there is no reason  to wake up... some times in nights I woke up and watch street road... other time I cried out loud...some ti...