It all started that spring morning, She was sleeping on the classroom desk, the morning sun was glowing on her face and I just fall her. Her calmness and passionate simplicity were killing my nerves.
These were our college days, So I was thinking to ask her out and being together. But she is completely different from me. I'm like smart, charming, literally impassionate and outspoken, I can talk to anyone on campus. She is a shy, conservative personality. She was a topper and I was the back bencher. If I refer to rabbit and tortoise story. I'm a rabbit and she is a turtle.
In the last paper of 3rd semester, I nudge her to meet at the library and at that meeting I asked her! and I got a reality check ;). Seriously that hurt my ego. Till the time, I reach to bus-stop bubble has burst out. That day you realize friends are 'haramisssss'. Though they and her friends not just warned me but told me she will REJECT you but I wanted to be the hero and for the next 3 semesters, from being a hero I was zero.
Meanwhile, I was enjoying 'The Gazing' and many times she was glancing as well and we started chatting on FB. She was using her friend's FB account and How I got to know!? Her friend texted me she is using her account. Till date, she doesn't admit it 😁. All this was going smoothly. No one knows about it, for them, the library incident was the final answer.
Sadly College came to end and Lucky me got a chance to dance with her one last party!!! this was shocking for the people around us. But I was in the different war inside my head, when? where? how? I'll see her next! Is it the end because for me it had just started. Till that time she didn't even gave her number (or didn't asked for my number as well, though I've it but not officially).
Surely, after that, we kept on chatting now with our own numbers . But I wanted to see her! what were those feelings I don't know? But one thing I got realize differences are coming out now. She just wants to befriend and I can't be a friend-zone. We met a couple of times, or I was just forcing!? we had long night conversions or arguments. Next day arguments were gone. But after a couple of days the same thing. There were a thousand instances where we had blocked/unblocked each other. This has lasted for a few months. One day it became so ugly we just slapped each other and we cut-off forever. Maybe I was irresponsible and she was insecure.
A few months later '.' came in my message and killed my nerves again...
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