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It all started that spring morning, She was sleeping on the classroom desk, the morning sun was glowing on her face and I just fall her. Her calmness and passionate simplicity were killing my nerves. These were our college days, So I was thinking to ask her out and being together. But she is completely different from me. I'm like smart, charming, literally impassionate and outspoken, I can talk to anyone on campus. She is a shy, conservative personality. She was a topper and I was the back bencher. If I refer to rabbit and tortoise story. I'm a rabbit and she is a turtle. In the last paper of 3rd semester, I nudge her to meet at the library and at that meeting I asked her! and I got a reality check ;). Seriously that hurt my ego. Till the time, I reach to bus-stop bubble has burst out. That day you realize friends are 'haramisssss'. Though they and her friends not just warned me but told me she will REJECT you but I wanted to be the hero and for the next 3 semesters, fr...

Recently I am keep on thinking how I started writing!?    Answer is quite simple with pencil and on stencil letters. Initially need to connect dots on paper. Than we need fill entire page (in my case multiple A4 size 😅). Next phase is to learn, How to connect those letter and create word. Connect word and it becomes sentence. If you make any mistakes than eraser is with you, mostly backside of pencil.   What's Exciting is,💭 why papa/did /bhai/uncle is writing with  Pen?And once we become pro in creating words,  we like steal pens and write down our leanings in paper or books. This was thrilling moments on those days. And finally your school permits to  use only pens in your home/class work, It's like I am already pro 😎.  It also takes sense of responsibility, That you can't hide your mistakes it will be open book. With those mistakes, Choice is yours (i) either you can make it as ugly as possible (i.e. try to hide those mis...

Year of changes. They are good it has a fresh breeze. it’s been also a year of confusion. I found my self in lots of situation where I am not able to make a decision. These are feelings surely it will get away. Year of meeting childhood again. It’s a common tradition here to go to mama’s house for summer vacation. It was amazing and beautiful. Chemistry has been changed or I can say it’s been more emotional and sweet. :) Year of traveling as well. Average traveling 250-300km/monthly. Traveling in both mode self-drive and by bus. Went to the very eastern coast of Gujarat and southern coast of Gujarat. And yes seen tallest statue as well :D Year of surprises, learnings, and faithfulness. we can plan so many things life doesn’t work in that way. Life has its own plan and it’s beautiful. Faith in almighty or guts will last long. Its been learning year as well. What best I learned is” I don’t know”. Yes, it takes lots of courage and knowledge to say ‘I don’t know’.  Learning make...

Happy Diwali! Passions is key (for me) to unlock sucess! I have started changing things yet so many things to be changed. Many fears I have loosed and catched others. It's like rejection is key to sucess. I have been rejected over and over. Many times it's feel like talking black-hole, it's black dent sky with I can keep talking... Life is paradox. You are going in one direction and it will take you somewhere else. I can keep enjoying and have faith. Faith is big word now, I am literally questioning everything comes to me. Always trying dig ito details. Do you understand  diging into details? There is unnecessary difference, I have seen everyone is in this loop only. This difference is not just with others, with ourself as well. To become calm or to have more passions is to be faithful. I have to start believing. To believe is magnificent. It will attract all other requirements. To have faith every little thing will be ok. Lots of stories are there, every...

Happy summer!!! Sunny is hitting the roads, hot winds making us lazy. Laziest season of the year, No one likes to come out of bed in the morning and felling sleepy while working. As usual life is crazy with me, today just someone told me ‘ KARMA ’ is coming back to me and I saw things as accidents, sometimes accidents are more often then usual. How I see this accidents, I read somewhere : There where 3 people lifetime jailed due to false accuse of murder. After 20years at when they are going to released only 1 was alive. Journalists asked how did you survived? Answer was simpler “I found meaning to be alive.”   कुछ बात है कि हस्ती मिटती नहीं हमारी You were never be alone, your god has plan for you. You need to focus on your path goal. Your choices must to hit that bulls eye or closer to that bulls eye irrespective of how many noise around  you, nobody is with you. We need to walk alone on this tight robe. Blessings is what you have, you need to count those n...

It's new year!!! I have met all my loved ones and it always makes me happy to see them all. Winter morning with good breakfast and family drama makes me happy, I loved spent time like that. In any case I woke up earlier or it's been family's discipline. Apart from this holidays it's feels like mechanical life, you follow the timings at each moment during this days times flies like kite in sky. I loved to fly kites and yell and celebrate this days. As the years go I see it very differently. When I was kid there are some other people around me and now-days it's new. There is no new face, even ritual is not new we are doing it for the years. Sun seems like to be setting for now. They are getting older now, they like to sit together, talk and have good food. Time changed!!, New sun rising like we celebrate on this moments as well. What I feel like festival and dates. those are second for all of us. We need reason to celebrate with each other. Festival an...

From months I was thinking to write something, haven't get chance or importantly topics. Back to home town for Diwali : Festival of lights, family and new hopes. This quote can justify diwali. Darkness ca nnot stand the light.   You could be in darkest room, one flame can light up room within no time. As per indian tradition we tie 'Toran' on diwali. Ancient said we celebrate to welcome Lord Ram after his defect with Ravan and returning from exile of 14 years in Ramayana. The other reason return of Pandavas  after 12 year of exile.  People draws the R an goli at their welcome door. Rangoli symbolize welcome, new color of life. They worship goddesses Laxmi. Fire crackers symbolize victory over This is all for society what for us!!! Ask yourself what is new!!!, what is your rangoli!!, what you are victories off??? I have asked many Spritual guru, many time heard them they describe. How they have changed in years. Many of them failed to explain that that on new ...

Summer 😎! It's been so long that I have stopped reading almost 3-4 months haven't read anything new. Schedule becomes hectic like machine woke-up, take-bath, go to Mandir, office, lunch, dinner and calls. Weekends passes in repairing new things. Hence Year spent, couldn't spent year.  Sitting room watching sun burning outside. It's always like yesterday we just cam from street after playing and today we are so responsible today. How long it will take I am grown up man and kid anymore. But ti's been always when it lost. It's always been lost you can remember it, you can not do any thing  about it. Some are easily shift into circle of life, like it's not shift and for people like me it find really difficult to go to new page and very critical in social life 😛😉. Life doesn't stop or take reboot. We need to define our priorities and choose what to do now. And we can not compare situations instead we should start believing.

Life is fast seems like just six months back I am in collage and it’s going to be 4 years now. Exact amount of time we spend with each other we have been separated. So many of them never seen them before and few are very close. It’s not like we don’t care about each other it’s like we were too busy with our goals or life. Life is moving fast than ever before. Last year was roller-coaster ride, it’s like I am taking leap or I falling down either wise both are paradox. The deep will you go, you will be grow richer outside. If I meet any of the collage mates they have been very different it seems like they gown, responsible now, committed & more confident than ever again. You mate that guy yesterday how the hell he/she can change this much over night, but night was too long for me it’s been 4 years. Some of them are parents now (too early, I know but they choose that.) They are started syncing   What’s about me!! Where am I! Am I responsible! Am I now more committed! Or shou...

Happpy navaratri!!!! So many things happen that was completely unexpected.  And like worse nightmare. You stand by for people for in hope that they will stand by @worst.  Fortunately I have learned this in last few months. You are doing it for shake this thing should happen nothing more than that.Another one people will take you for granted if you are available. Main taan gul se lipti titli ki tarah muhajir hoon Ek pal ko thehroon, pal mein udd jaaun Best thing I get to know is that journey is more beautiful then destination and you will be alone on top & bottom. I have been in both sides. You have to choose to you are @top or @bottom because all the places are same in ways. What if you losses what did you lose & what happens if you win what you won. The Survive is the only option to be happy. Things must be done because it must be done or it’s new or there is no other reason. The survive is the journey of Lone to Alone. Make yourself for alone and...

Happpy Monsoon!!! Nothing is like monsoon breeze. Always been wonderful and chilled. What's freedom? Freedom is get out of something. As human we have tendency to control destiny, people, faith and almost every thing and on other hand we need freedom. We go on break and vacation to find freedom. People who wants to control his destiny they become workaholic for their freedom. Others who wants to control people they become politicization. Control faith they become Baba's or now spiritual guide. They want to sell this things because they wants freedom from those things. Everyone is running to control freedom. Every day each of us finding freedom from some thoughts and feelings that's the reason of mood swing's.  Why we are not free? The core problem is this. To be absolute free and relax is to give freedom to others. Let their thoughts and actions be free.  Control them if it's wrong then and only then change them.  To polish your ego don't...

It's Summer!!! I am loving it. Summer will be here soon. And everyone is on vacation or planning for vacation. Kids are on street playing around and planning for mama's home. Schools are over and results are about to come. Mango's are out there and everyone is after there. :p I could feel those memories with me those dry hot empty street roads. Chilling mango shakes and ocean winds touching you and that get long last in memory. Games, fun, Late night talks and next morning getting ready for picnics. At that time no one knows these is going for last in your memory. You can see through windows but you can not leave it back. And as time grows things change. But no thing is change only people are changed else we all are doing  same thing  chilling in gardens and all the fun. only things is change  is people you are interacting with. It is not that we don't want those people. Silent school buildings at the very next day after vacation starts. Schools become ...

Summer is knocking, but seems like whether is still confused with session.  Morning feels like winter followed by monsoon and summer in day. It's been tough winter for me lot physical hurdles. Sometimes life forces us to collect materials and you go collect them with empty soul. It doesn't matter you gain or loose your soul remains empty. And if you gain you start believing something and you become slave of that belief or you loose you become slave of other belief and life becomes shorter for you. We are at same two frog story, well frog won't accept that world is much more bigger than well walls. " Less people know, the more stubbornly they know it. "   - Osho We all stuck with the same story one or another way. We need to get out of it. It's going to be hard, fearful, unknown, wild more importantly it's going to be mysterious. It forces you to know more, love more, faith more, explore more and embarrass life. "The faithful are m...

Happpy new year!!! New Year is here,resolution, greetings, celebrations and at the end hope, everything will be alright. New wind will took us to sky!!! Breeze of fresh air, fire cracks, music, dance, cheers , hugs and kissses. We miss something, enjoy something, celebrate something, cheers loud, crack the fires, opens champion, king's food, naughty nights parties through all night and Next day we enjoy hangovers :p :p :p I celebrated in chili whether and arms of love. Nothing new, surprisingly  everything is normal and that's bigger deal.We have so many celebration's b'dys, new year, anniversary's ... or we have  DATES !!! we got older or grownup. In many cases those are the same???In mine case I end up with questions!!! Does I am the same racer, Fighting same fight, Leading to same, does end is same!!! Am I pursuing same just body is differs. And you know what answer always comes NO!!! And when-ever comes yes I look @ my family, friends, carrier and ...

Happy thanksgiving! It's been long for writing / blogging.  Read some where: "There is always something to be thankful." Too small two words, But has very powerful meanings. We might thought "Thank you" is for others, why we thankful for something we bought, something we rented, But we must that will help us,  It keeps us rooted, gives feeling of 'US',shows quality of thoughts, shows yours deeper commitment that how hard it is  I will fight till the end, motivates you to do more and let the good come and dirt go away. To be thankful means you are changing your views of world, problems, responsibility, energies, after thanking you are at peace, you have no harsh, you have no hate feelings and  You can forgot past because you already made peace with it, took the leap. Gratefulness brings joy, it is all you need.  Kis lamhe ne thaami ungli meri  Phusla ke mujhko le chala Nange paaon daudi aankhein meri Khwabon ki saari bas...