jinen kothari

after long time writing a blog ...!!!but still don't know wot to write...!!! in ma mind there is lot's thoughts it killing me from a long time ...!!! want to over come my circumstance ...want change ma self but real thing is that ma circumstance changing faster than my self ...feels like life is running so faster than my self...want to update my self...but lot n lot new thing n situation coming in ma life...!!!n ma mind confused in all those stuff ..!!!  :( :( :( wot ever i h've to take calm n passionate to get ma desire goal  or success...h've to trust on time b'coz time always make thing good....!!?wot ever it is after time has gone we fills like it is all we h've  it   still we are not h'py with wot ever we h've  but we shows that we are most happiest person of the world ...!!! but i can't live like that i want to do all those thing that i believe n want to successful in life   ...!!!  m not normal person b'coz i really don't do tho...

finally two days actually at tuesday at evening result was declared.... it's good as it is in last all sem......but thing is that mind suck in that......i don't know why but that's now become headache!!! need some positive thoughts to think i don't know why m so sady  that driving me nuts .....thoughts are coming in mind like cyclone ...!!!   they just coming n passing all time to fighting with ma self only n all energy n time is wasting on that ......!!!! thing is actually is that i really didn't like to do any thing....even didn't like to watch the film or any thing why i don't....???....i really can't consecrate on any thing any thing i start ma ind sucks on other thoughts n really can not do any thing!!! ma mind sucks on unbelievable thoughts, future , past , present , imagination n all the time it's making a new picture in ma mind that is acceptable at all .....!!!now thoughts getting kill me ...!!! real thing is that i just...

wow it was amazing movie ' zindagi na milangi dobara '... it's all about life such heart touching movie. it's simply awesome ....!!! that all we had do is that is " just keep breathing " ....wot says??? n that all poems are the awesome it's just all touched ...!!!! because we all pass from our good or bad time of our life n all that situation comes in our life when we dare to do something new ...anything u just start u have to pass to the bad period it's dependance on how u think or work for it n the how will u trust ur self more than situation or any thing else ...!!! i just pass through this kind of  situation in ma life ... i dare to do something than usually!!!.. i didn't succeeded in that how people getting against u...!!! i think there is four kind of people u may found 1)  one who speaks against you 2)  one who speaks nothing  3)  one who is with you ( most hurting if u don't  success ed ) 4) n finally it's you .....

n it's finally it comes to end ....actually story book was published two years ago but yesterday the film is end ... end of the  lord voldmort ....at the end truth n love wins ...against dishonesty film is full of action mind blowing....!!! but now it feels sad no more harry potter it all end ...!!!  now no more dream or potter world to live ...!!! : (  : (   : ( but the main thing is that this time from the part 1 of the Hp7 that leads me to think just yesterday i realized about what it ... m too excited to watch that film because i read book ...but the film was some how different from the book or story ...!!! I think nothing is more beautiful or great or big or awesome than " what you had dream is in your hand " ..... i feel just like that it is all in my hand m the luckiest person in the world all those in my dream or in imagination that all in my hand that is unexplained feelings of my life ....ya i had problem to explain my feelings but i can predict ...

after long time i saw Gujarati natak ....it's simply awesome such humorous comedy in the natak called " lage raho gujju bhai " ...after long time i must i laughed from heart such wonderful it is ...feels free after laughing to sleep actual this days am lazier..... actually am lazy one : )  : )  : )  ...... but actually thing is that  second natak  was emotional after watching this type of story n movies ( etc )....no words for me n no reaction to express those things actually life doesn't not h've those part in life the actually life is to practical then even think if loose ( our self ) this world we kill they just need reason to kill you not physically but psychologically ...!!! i had pass this situation in mine  life..... i think that was worst period of mine life i don't but even mine owns don't believes me at all... all the time they doubt in my self this leads me to think i can't do that but that's not true thing is too easier to do for me.....

it's 8:00 in evening ......sitting in aunt's hall beautiful evening breeze .....monsoon is started but its breeze of the summer !!!! cool wave comes in the room and it's all feels like no one is happier than us......!!!!  this  cool wave feels like it's  time to dream feel like m closer to my detestation n  m the luckiest man in the world....!!!! i feels like this environment around me forever felling fresh ....scar of nothing .....nothing to lose nothing to win we  all are same ....!!!!! how we are still we don't know where the actually freedom ..... ya there is difference is that rich man feels in his room or tears ....or poor ones on the road ....but feeling are the same that we doesn't expect any thing but just want to feel it .....all feeling is the same ......that feels like we are closer to god or happiness or heart or aims or life or loved ones .....!!!!! but it actually we are closer to over self....   !!!!

started reading new book called the namesake .......written by jumpa lahari bangoli ( love ) story of named gogole ....i realy don't know how to pronounce it but story is not interesting but not like to put it dawn .....!!! two more weeks of vacation want enjoy it lot ....!!!..not having any idea how i will enjoy it!!!!

finally it's come end of every thing .........exam's are over getting stuck with books almost one month get bored out of it....but still thinking no more work until next exam!!!!!! but this semester teach me a lot thing......but still there is missing lots of thing for to WIN.......

i don't know any thing about success b'coz all i think is that any people get the things that all things has time has given to them.........they just respect time and time respect him nothing else no one get any thing before time .....just one time arrived your all the things favors you that is called sucess???  ...i don't know but it is just like that ...but things we h've to dream it and h've to work on it that we can get those things.......but the word success come across is that when we know on the our way that where reached ....that is feel of success but it makes us  egoist ........that i had did this but real thing is that we did just work and tie has given all the thing to us we are just worker    of time nothing else like others ......!!!!!! as some one said " success is the journey not destination "......keep working !!!

remembering school not b'coz of they vacation we don't h've ( ya we h've vacation but it's reading......hehe ) but  the reason behind remembering school is that seen photos on FB of  manali tracking camp ......... i feel little jealousy from those student   gone on trip n college we don't have any trips like this......all we to do is our self....... main difference between college n school is that there is race but haven't  feel like this man ..........this college specially this engineering college says that " LIFE IS THE RACE... U CAN'T RUN SOMEONE WILL SURELY OVERTAKE U.."every one is on showing that i am the first i did this all are the showoff    there .....but we have to learn that "WE ARE HERE NOT WIN PARTICIPATOR BUT WE ARE HER TO WIN A GAME....nothing n no one else" life is such like that if u loose no is knowing n nobody is your  even your closer are get far away from you b'coz  your a looser but if you win everybody...

day is awesome filling good with little worry about how to complete the subject like communication engineering .....want to complete this subject today.......b'coz there lot more i don't we engineering students won't study whole semester in complete alll the subject during reading vacation...... don't want to study more now b'coz get  bore from it .....idon't any pratical application of this AM FM PMetc. :( :( :( ...and also like DSBAC/SC SSB SC etc. ya i know how it works but scare is that it all get now confusion  in my mind

hey guys this is Sunday evening in don't want read more this com. subject .......such boring subject really don't how the EC engineers handle  this circuits....makes me nuts ....want to chill ....

thoughts are being comes mind that wot we are doing is right or wrong that we can't decide it at all ....... that on which we are working were it leads to us it's truth it leads us some where ......n were we stand in our life can we get our dreams ......???? don't know it will come true or not but what can i do the best is just can work n keep working..... n h've faith some thing god , people , dreams , work or "karm" ( things we did in past write or wrong )....... i believe in people n dreams ......but the matter is that need more strength or more faith to win the game of life..... 

this is first day blogging experience.....want to start it every day fills good to write our thoughts ........n really fills  free when we express our thoughts .....so that want to do it regularly........ on how the days  are the of reading time it feels like the worst days of studying b'coz h've to our self.... actually time is that  " har ne ka dar or jit ne ki umid k bich ek tension ka samay hota hai......""  in this is the time to dream best n work for it to full fill it ......want work hard n want win this time .......