jinen kothari

finally exams are over (yup the it started must have to stop before it hits ...lol) felling good ... nah not relax but good ...actually i do like this busy days and  working hours ...on this days i feels satisfy  after completion of the day...m not able to doing this social things or relationship... so work is the best thing m doing!!! wot actually happens is that want to improve or progress ...but reality is that nothing is happening....m working hard...it doesn't mean that  i have to let people fell that m working hard or not,yes i know that m working hard...i know where m stops but actual happens  is that m not improve in that... i don't know about from ma side or from universe...try lots of new things from the  last year but result is zero...no progress no improvement.!! : ( m not felling ant thing bad or guilt of anything but it now feels like m fighting against the whole world or ma self ...!!!i don't know but feels like yes m growing up...try to ch...

exam is just started today ...paper was quite good but do not know about the answer paper ..hahaha ;) ;) :D just kidding  ...it was quite good  .... :) but not as ma expectation really thing matter is some thing like that for the last 3 semester i can not able to over come this ...!!! may  it is the reason of mine loss in school or 12th .... Really m felling such fresh ...sure about  things ....yup i am!!!   don't know what happens to me ....m not able to live this paper ...ma mind sucks around the whole world ....that's why m not able to do things properly in that time...trying to over come this...but don't know the way ...i kept ma self working ...may be it will give me answer!!! such lovely song... Udhati hui titalli(butterfly) ki rangeen parchayi Reh jaati hai phoolon mein Waise hi tum ik tasveer ke jaise Chahye ho inn aankhon mein Hosanna Tum joh mera khwaab ho Hosanna Dil kyun na betaab ho Kahoon toh kya kahoon Main kyun dewaana hoon ...

Steve jobs.... connecting dots... 

something to share... i don't know this i  ma negative side or what .!!? but it feels like now days circumstance sounds some how like that ...it feels that m putting efforts 100persent working hard physically and metaphysically...fillings are positive and at least m doing every thing is as long as i know and people says that is complete from ma side ...but reality sounds some how very difference...!!! :( yup that is not all runs in main that is reality but truth is that m not getting any kind of result...how long i h've to wait for the result!?? i don't know but i h've to wait for it...but now it feels like m only the one in this fight....yes off course it quite difficult to win ...but that doesn't mean to give up at all...and another thing is nothing showing any positive direction...really nothing favors... sometime it is really very hard to trust our inner intuition,other than we h've nothing in our hand...i know people is not going to favor me...off co...

so the day was quite busy but not all of ma work.!! but sometimes it is quite necessary to for doing those things that are not actually necessary we kept in some situation is that we want to get out of it but we won't be able to so just day is just like that... so here is about dream  not actually but lasy night dream...it is all actually about the rain !!! it's sounds something new that about that rain i don't know but the last there is heavy rain in ma dream...as long as i remember it there is heavy  rain fall last night and m alone in the rain ...really we dream all the night we sleep or sometimes in day & we just forgot about that thing but this is sound some thing new in ma mind why i don't but yes it's sounds interesting ... and the another interesting thing is  about this day is that today suddenly it feels like time is going too faster but m used to with it ...is going and going no one can stop or change it but only we can is just use it... so let ...

m writing a blog after some time ,really  m not able to remember last blog of mine...but it doesn't matter at all ...actually last week i watched movie "AARKASHAN " on jan 26th ...average movie but such beautiful thing in the movie is that if you have your work you can fight against any thing if your master in that nobody able to touch you and let you down .... do work your best it is what you have in life nothing else nothing is more important than your work even your not more important ...what ever you want fame, money, revenge what ever it is that only your work can give you doesn't matter how the work is small or big but what matter is that how you do it , and how you feel it...!!! we must love our work...or else do that what we love!!! and we must keep faith in that what ever we are doing that will surely rising us to some success ...or remember one thing only that success is just a moment,nothing else...!!! through out the life in your bad or good days th...

finally winter semester is begun for us official date was Dec 26th but that's official date ; ) : p : D as usually nothing is surprising at all ...!!! but yesterday i read something about staring that was on new year but you can compare it all the new thing is you going to begun ...!!! so what it was something like that each year is starting with new hopes ,loves and off course expatiation new dreams is going to high but i what i think it's already new day... !!! we h've to celebrate like new year !!! but each one has it's own philosophy ...!!! so it is first day of winter semester just awesome not actually day...  : p but WHETHER is just unexplainable ...!!!we should feel it...!!! it feels like in heaven!!! i think there is no need of study in this kind of beautiful whether!!! nature  teach us lots of things people who can feel it they can understand !!! ya seriously no need to study at least in our area b'coz it takes hall year to come back ... Most beautiful...

yo here is i am at my mom's mother's home actually ma grandma's home !!!m here from last year means from Friday ;) so already 2012 is start and 2nd January almost is going two over i nothing interesting about to me for the 31st nite and new years i just believe is the date is change nothing more even i never fell any thing in Diwali and any other celebration i don't know but for me is celebration is some thing another thing to do...!!! i believe that when m gonna  successful that is party for me all the year but i really don't about when m got it ...!!! for me is each day is like the same day i woke up just it is new day i must h've to work for doing any thing!!!i think for me celebration is another thing ...!?? what ever it is !!! i think great thing is about here is that i don't h've to do any thing( actually m not doing any thing at home too )!!! what i feel is like mental , physical and spiritual freedom is here ..!!! yup i don't why but m ...

finally after  4 days back to home actually m want to post this blog two days before but what ever it happens m not able to do that lots of work h've to do but still m felling lazy ... !!! mumbai is just awesome!!! it feels all like limitless there is no limit of any thing work ,entertainment,shopping etc.all thing is just in no control of any one people ,tings and yes time all thing  is feel like moving so fat if you lose even 1sec you feel like losing of  everything ... during this days and from last semester i just came to know "don't judge people " but let them judge you b'coz it is better to be stupid!!! that people think you can not able to do lots of things ,so they will do it for you n you don't h've to do such things but even they can't do completed things you h've to do that thing make them wrong !!! stay foolish !!! but true thing is that if you start judging people you may wrong lots of time but try to people judge you and then...

after long time writing a blog ...!!!but still don't know wot to write...!!! in ma mind there is lot's thoughts it killing me from a long time ...!!! want to over come my circumstance ...want change ma self but real thing is that ma circumstance changing faster than my self ...feels like life is running so faster than my self...want to update my self...but lot n lot new thing n situation coming in ma life...!!!n ma mind confused in all those stuff ..!!!  :( :( :( wot ever i h've to take calm n passionate to get ma desire goal  or success...h've to trust on time b'coz time always make thing good....!!?wot ever it is after time has gone we fills like it is all we h've  it   still we are not h'py with wot ever we h've  but we shows that we are most happiest person of the world ...!!! but i can't live like that i want to do all those thing that i believe n want to successful in life   ...!!!  m not normal person b'coz i really don't do tho...

finally two days actually at tuesday at evening result was declared.... it's good as it is in last all sem......but thing is that mind suck in that......i don't know why but that's now become headache!!! need some positive thoughts to think i don't know why m so sady  that driving me nuts .....thoughts are coming in mind like cyclone ...!!!   they just coming n passing all time to fighting with ma self only n all energy n time is wasting on that ......!!!! thing is actually is that i really didn't like to do any thing....even didn't like to watch the film or any thing why i don't....???....i really can't consecrate on any thing any thing i start ma ind sucks on other thoughts n really can not do any thing!!! ma mind sucks on unbelievable thoughts, future , past , present , imagination n all the time it's making a new picture in ma mind that is acceptable at all .....!!!now thoughts getting kill me ...!!! real thing is that i just...

wow it was amazing movie ' zindagi na milangi dobara '... it's all about life such heart touching movie. it's simply awesome ....!!! that all we had do is that is " just keep breathing " ....wot says??? n that all poems are the awesome it's just all touched ...!!!! because we all pass from our good or bad time of our life n all that situation comes in our life when we dare to do something new ...anything u just start u have to pass to the bad period it's dependance on how u think or work for it n the how will u trust ur self more than situation or any thing else ...!!! i just pass through this kind of  situation in ma life ... i dare to do something than usually!!!.. i didn't succeeded in that how people getting against u...!!! i think there is four kind of people u may found 1)  one who speaks against you 2)  one who speaks nothing  3)  one who is with you ( most hurting if u don't  success ed ) 4) n finally it's you .....

n it's finally it comes to end ....actually story book was published two years ago but yesterday the film is end ... end of the  lord voldmort ....at the end truth n love wins ...against dishonesty film is full of action mind blowing....!!! but now it feels sad no more harry potter it all end ...!!!  now no more dream or potter world to live ...!!! : (  : (   : ( but the main thing is that this time from the part 1 of the Hp7 that leads me to think just yesterday i realized about what it ... m too excited to watch that film because i read book ...but the film was some how different from the book or story ...!!! I think nothing is more beautiful or great or big or awesome than " what you had dream is in your hand " ..... i feel just like that it is all in my hand m the luckiest person in the world all those in my dream or in imagination that all in my hand that is unexplained feelings of my life ....ya i had problem to explain my feelings but i can predict ...

after long time i saw Gujarati natak ....it's simply awesome such humorous comedy in the natak called " lage raho gujju bhai " ...after long time i must i laughed from heart such wonderful it is ...feels free after laughing to sleep actual this days am lazier..... actually am lazy one : )  : )  : )  ...... but actually thing is that  second natak  was emotional after watching this type of story n movies ( etc )....no words for me n no reaction to express those things actually life doesn't not h've those part in life the actually life is to practical then even think if loose ( our self ) this world we kill they just need reason to kill you not physically but psychologically ...!!! i had pass this situation in mine  life..... i think that was worst period of mine life i don't but even mine owns don't believes me at all... all the time they doubt in my self this leads me to think i can't do that but that's not true thing is too easier to do for me.....

it's 8:00 in evening ......sitting in aunt's hall beautiful evening breeze .....monsoon is started but its breeze of the summer !!!! cool wave comes in the room and it's all feels like no one is happier than us......!!!!  this  cool wave feels like it's  time to dream feel like m closer to my detestation n  m the luckiest man in the world....!!!! i feels like this environment around me forever felling fresh ....scar of nothing .....nothing to lose nothing to win we  all are same ....!!!!! how we are still we don't know where the actually freedom ..... ya there is difference is that rich man feels in his room or tears ....or poor ones on the road ....but feeling are the same that we doesn't expect any thing but just want to feel it .....all feeling is the same ......that feels like we are closer to god or happiness or heart or aims or life or loved ones .....!!!!! but it actually we are closer to over self....   !!!!

started reading new book called the namesake .......written by jumpa lahari bangoli ( love ) story of named gogole ....i realy don't know how to pronounce it but story is not interesting but not like to put it dawn .....!!! two more weeks of vacation want enjoy it lot ....!!!..not having any idea how i will enjoy it!!!!

finally it's come end of every thing .........exam's are over getting stuck with books almost one month get bored out of it....but still thinking no more work until next exam!!!!!! but this semester teach me a lot thing......but still there is missing lots of thing for to WIN.......

i don't know any thing about success b'coz all i think is that any people get the things that all things has time has given to them.........they just respect time and time respect him nothing else no one get any thing before time .....just one time arrived your all the things favors you that is called sucess???  ...i don't know but it is just like that ...but things we h've to dream it and h've to work on it that we can get those things.......but the word success come across is that when we know on the our way that where reached ....that is feel of success but it makes us  egoist ........that i had did this but real thing is that we did just work and tie has given all the thing to us we are just worker    of time nothing else like others ......!!!!!! as some one said " success is the journey not destination "......keep working !!!

remembering school not b'coz of they vacation we don't h've ( ya we h've vacation but it's reading......hehe ) but  the reason behind remembering school is that seen photos on FB of  manali tracking camp ......... i feel little jealousy from those student   gone on trip n college we don't have any trips like this......all we to do is our self....... main difference between college n school is that there is race but haven't  feel like this man ..........this college specially this engineering college says that " LIFE IS THE RACE... U CAN'T RUN SOMEONE WILL SURELY OVERTAKE U.."every one is on showing that i am the first i did this all are the showoff    there .....but we have to learn that "WE ARE HERE NOT WIN PARTICIPATOR BUT WE ARE HER TO WIN A GAME....nothing n no one else" life is such like that if u loose no is knowing n nobody is your  even your closer are get far away from you b'coz  your a looser but if you win everybody...

day is awesome filling good with little worry about how to complete the subject like communication engineering .....want to complete this subject today.......b'coz there lot more i don't we engineering students won't study whole semester in complete alll the subject during reading vacation...... don't want to study more now b'coz get  bore from it .....idon't any pratical application of this AM FM PMetc. :( :( :( ...and also like DSBAC/SC SSB SC etc. ya i know how it works but scare is that it all get now confusion  in my mind